Finished the 2 months of crazy traveling, re-entering my more routine lifestyle of London. I have learnt quite a bit from these 2 months away. It is hard to summarise what had happened in the past weeks and months. I definitely had a good time away from university life and perhaps it allows me to have a more refreshing start to the next decade of my life. Everyone tells me that I have options - that apparently is the optimistic way of putting “I have a degree now - I can work for someone whoever that someone/something might be.”
Just did my IBM online test 1/2 awake, and I kind of messed it up. Then again, I thought I messed it up with Siemens and Toyota but somehow I did ok. Oh well…I didn’t really have much time lately to sit in front of the computer long enough in the past 7 days to actually do the test - and I have to do it within 7 days of recieving the invitation (which ends tomorrow). Strange: less than 8 hours till my flight and I am feeling way too normal. But 1 thing I am certain about is that I am looking forward to start my life in London. I’ve got interview lined up and some exciting days ahead - well exciting meaning something which has to do with my future instead of just doing in the name of fun.
I am confident I will be able to find what it is that I am supposed to do next. I have no clue, but perhaps that is also the joy of life: the unknowns. I find it extremely depressing to dwell on the unknowns because the unknowns cannot be controlled and as a human being who doesn’t have control over these unknowns, it is very easy to become overly pessimistic to ensure that one will not get too depressed by the reality. Perhaps its the lessons of life I have come to learn: never expect. Perhaps when one really masters his own expectations and make it meet with reality, he shall be a happy man. Well, always live in the moment and always be prepared. I don’t really know what that means. I have been trying to understand that lately, but I still don’t really get it. Nonetheless, I have been living my days in Japan, Hong Kong and Australia to its fullest, I can only take with me the good memories of these times, and believe in one thing: Hope. This leads me to recommend a blog post: Hope and Expectations.
I choose to look at this not as a finale of my freedom, but the beginning of a new life and unknowns. It is like jumping off a cliff without a safety net and trusting that the water will carry your weight. For me, life will always be fun on the edge because its やばい (yabai: risky), and the sense of achievement is ecstatic, and of course if you fall, the wound is also that much deeper and painful. But hey, there is always the dutch saying to fall back on: A donkey never fall on the same stone twice. I am definitely not a donkey cause I keep finding new ways of falling on the same stone -_-!!
Tomorrow: London.