I need a way out…I feel so trapped. The thing is, the more I look at things which is remotely connected to what I do, it makes me shiver in disgust =S This is really not a great sign. I wished I had good councel when I was younger. I wished I had followed my heart and not my mind. Now I am trapped within my own misery and I need out. Perhaps its for my own good. Just gotta remember it couldn’t have happened any other way…