If there was one thing I have taken away from the past 2 weeks, it’s that of positivity: One must portray a sense of positivity at all times. I was described yesterday by Randy as “you’re very negative in a very positive way!” I suppose I have been somewhat depressed, angry and frustrated at my given situation, but it’s not the end of the world, and I have only 2 choices: 1) complain about it, harbour negative feelings for it or 2) make the best out of the situation and wish for the best. I was given an opportunity, I felt that I gave it my best shot and I honestly felt a bit out of my depth – not because of inability but because of my ignorance; in other words, lack of knowledge and experience.
I guess there are a few tips for myself to practice:
1) Never be defensive for any choices you make: There are always bad things which comes with a choice.
2) Always try to portray everything in a positive light: There are always negative points about something, you can choose to concentrate on those or choose to concentrate on the positive ones to make it better.
3) Keep going and don’t feel defeated upon failure: I had a discussion with my mum about failure, I was asked to describe my worse failure. I do feel times and times again I hit a brick wall. However, there will always be a crack somewhere; I manage to get through and shine. It is tough to be defeated but there are always hope – as long as you don’t give up, a failure is not a failure: It’s an obstacle.
I felt somewhat defeated yesterday. Despite that, there were some positives I had taken away from it. I had very successful people (in a purely materialistic, worldly way) saying that my experiences are ones which they truly envy and admire about. I think I had shown that I have the tenacity and ability to propel myself that much further. I feel I am on a level playing field, and I realised I need a much more dynamic place and nature of work to fulfill my never-stopping mind from wandering into deep thoughts, and frankly boredom.
I guess irregardless of the results, I can honestly say everything I’ve done and prepared for in the past 2 weeks were well worth it. I just want to take this opportunity to thank all those who had taken my time out to help me. I really felt a sense of euphoria when I saw that so many people cared and really genuinely want to see me succeed (in a career sense). Thank you.